I’m so fucking tired. Exhausted. The past 3 weeks alone have been utterly stupid, let alone the past week. There has been good, and there has been bad, or really, really bad. I’m focusing on the good, but I’m fucking exhausted. I’m so over everything, right now.
I still need money/financial help right now. Help me, please. Please, and thank you.
There is so much shit in my head, I feel like I’m going to explode.
I put the smile on, and the rage behind it is…… intense, and immeasurable.
Sometimes I search for memes, that best describe the way I’m feeling, and I can’t find anything remotely close which matches it, whether humorously, or seriously. These are close.
Sometimes there is just nothing to say. You have to wait it out, patiently, slowly , deliberately taking the bullshit, biting your fucking tongue, and selling all the gear you have just to make sure the bills are paid (byebye Novation Circuit, bye Microkorg XL+, bye Maschine Studio)…. because there IS light at the end of the tunnel. Windows open, and doors shut.
Common sense, integrity, and inner strength is rebuilt. Slowly. But they are rebuilt.
There is so much in my head, I feel like I’m going to explode. I am so fucking sick of shitty, disgusting people and shitty, disgusting situations.
That is all. Time for bed.