My dad would have been 75 years old, today. But he unexpectedly died on February 3rd. What a fucking weird year.
I wrote this as a comment in response to a Youtuber who inspires me (Sweden’s Accurate Beats). Thought it appropriate, for a blog entry…….
“Love you, dude.
I’m in the same boat and have been for years (the coward thing)—- tons of unfinished stuff. Tons. Have a tendency to be a perfectionist, too. And every day I don’t put something out is another day wasted.
Used to be more active on YouTube but realized my tutorials got almost 10,000 views and my original music/jam things got like… not even 100 views. Algorithms are discouraging and make someone like me just turn away from it all completely, and jam alone, quietly with headphones.
Youtube’s pushed me to get more “out there” but I just feel like there’s already so many people “out there” and I’d just add to the chaos. Trying to make fun stuff, trying to finish videos… but the inspiration just isn’t there because I feel like nobody cares. It’s hard to be creative when you feel (and see proof) that no one cares.
Yes, we can make music for the pure joy of it (and I always have) but… past few years, seeing social media ruin creativity (as well as boost it for some), and seeing the terrible state of my country…. not a lot to look forward to, such little inspiration.
I feel like Hard Harry in Pump Up The Volume (1990). Shy, feeling distant from everyone, and looking for connections, and rarely finding any.
Keep making stuff, man. And thanks for helping me continue to try making stuff. “Done is better than perfect.”
And indeed, life is too short. My dad died unexpectedly on February 3rd.
I’m scared, but full of ideas. I just have to do them, too. Thanks again, Accurate.
To everyone out there going through something similar… say fuck it, and just make shit, and put it out. There’s always an audience for everything. You’re worth listening to. As am I.
My genius lyricist friend and frequent collaborator Mike (aka Wolf Mike Benson, vocalist of Boring Extraordinary) always says this to me (and has, in almost every email, for the past 9 years since we’ve been friends): STAY CREATIVE AS ALWAYS.
Sometimes it’s easier said than done, but… fuckin-a. Stay creative as always, friends. Life is too short. Make things. Release them. All the love to all of you. <3 Chris Caulder
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